• boy: why God creates man after the universe?
  • girl: maybe because He saves the best for last?
  • boy: hm, but I would only save what is best when it comes to my meal. God is not going to consume us, right?
  • girl: then maybe because we're not so important?
  • boy: how so?
  • girl: because when you create or build something you make the most important thing first, the most fundamental one.
  • boy: maybe you right. You build a house upon a foundation. But a house shall means nothing without a family or a human who inhabit it.
  • girl: you right, human gives meaning to everything.
  • boy: so, what is more important? the meaning or the creation?
  • girl: well, importance is a meaning. There would be no meaning if there is no creation to give meaning of. Maybe God creates man the last, because He wants us to learn philosophy. :D

The tasteless mask

Today I feel so horrible. Even though I started a day singing with glorious feeling.

But as the day unfold, it painfully started to gloom. My heart just crashed.

I don’t know whether I should believe in what I feel, or believe in what I want to believe.

I just want to be on my own.

My tensed face is the ugliest mask that I can find from my deposit of moods. Funny is, it turned out to be ineffective. People don’t leave you alone just because of your ugly face. Yeah, some are really that brave. And so I snapped.

Well, I don’t care about looking prim and proper today. I don’t give a shit about being nice. I’m tasteless and proud of it.

The reason

Maybe that’s the reason why people leave.

The subtle reason why we leave someone.

The understated reason why people leave us.

If one can’t win someone’s love forever.

Then I guess it would be better for one to refrain from the game.

Because one can’t fight forever for love.

Jacques Derrida on Forgiveness.

Forgiveness

Could I ever forgive my mother for leaving me 20 years ago?

Oh, maybe I should split the questions into two:

  1. Could I ever forgive my mother?
  2. Could I ever forgive her for what she’s done?

The point is, will I ever find consolation within?

Tweetative

  • Friend: "You're very quiet.Aren't you have something to say?"
  • Me: "Am tweeting"
  • Friend: "What's tweeting?"
  • Me: "Then we don't have more to talk about"

Sore tadi, aku naik sepeda ke warung beli minyak goreng.
Rasanya kayak balik ke jaman aku kecil, waktu aku masih sering disuruh-suruh ibuku belanja ke warung. Aku sangat menikmati masa-masa itu. Namun lucunya aku gak merasa berbeda-beda banget. Maksudku, aku merasa, aku yang sekarang ini masih aku yang sama; 10 thn yang lalu atau pun 20 thn lalu. Jiwaku masih jiwa yang sama.

Beautifully truthful & truthfully beautiful

Rasanya susah banget konsentrasi. Pikiranku bercabang antara mikirin Re dan pengen dapat nilai bagus. Apa sih sebenarnya tujuanku belajar filsafat? Apa nilai yang kucari? Bukankah kamu lebih tertarik sama pemahaman, Sis? Ayolah. Tidakkah kamu mengerti kalau pemahaman itu nyaris seperti segalanya? Paling tidak berdasarkan persepsi kamu sendiri kamu mencoba menjelaskan dunia untuk diri kamu sendiri. Tidakkah itu penting, Sisca? Tidakkah itu penting, mengingat betapa kusutnya kamu saat ini?

Tus why I think about Re? Oh, c’mon…dia emang ganteng kok. Admit it! Siapa sih yg gak akan terpesona sama dia? Satu atau karena lain hal, orang-orang akan memuji dia kok. Tus, so what? Dia ganteng, Sisca. Ganteng dan menarik. Sangat menarik. You’re admiring beauty. And that’s it. Kamu lihat, bahkan dalam keadaanmu sekarang ini, kamu memikirkan hal keindahan dan kebenaran. Itu tidak buruk untuk sebuah fisuf pemula ‘kan?

*dimalam hari waktu bikin PR dari materi dialog Plato.

Main sepeda itu..

Main sepeda itu emang serunya sama temen walaupun gw bisa nikmatin juga sendirian.
Tapi keindahan dan kenikmatan sepanjang perjalanannya itu rasanya pengen banget dibagi-bagi.
Ngajak siapa, ya?
Gabung sama rombongan mana, ya?

Double agent

Duh, keasyikan main sepeda sampe melupakan PR kuliah… :(
belum terbiasa nih dengan fungsi double agent; philosopher/bikers.